seeking steady: January 2013

So far 2013 has been a great for Bobby and I. It has been hard getting use to spending less time together and getting back into our work routines. We were so spoiled by Christmas break! At church we are calling this year the year of the bible. Obviously we study the bible all the time but this year we are saturating not only our time at church with it but our daily lives and most importantly our hearts! It's funny ...not it's sad how you can be in church your whole life, read scripture, and belief in God but totally miss Him.

That's where I find myself. I have lived my entire Christian live missing Him...the real Him. The God of the bible, not the children story version or the typical church answer. I am so ashamed of these simple truths that I have recited time and time again but never really knew what I was saying. Or never really realized what I was saying. I have been a lazy, fruitless and rotten child of the Living God....and I am so done with me!!

The past 18 days have been a wake up call and I feel like an entirely different person. My goal was to be more "put together"(whatever that means) this year. honestly I just wanted to stop wearing yoga pants so often and do something more grown up with my hair (and lose a million pounds) But as I began to read the Word of God....to see Jesus as He loved on people, embraced the words He spoke...my heart felt His grace cover me. Yes, I have been on Christian auto pilot but God has something great for me! Hes love me, He is always with me, and He has greater plans for my life. This is the journey I am on. I am learning to let go of this "plans" for my life (house, twins, pinterest perfect mom & wife) and listen as God speaks to me through my circumstances and interruptions.

So today as I spend some time reading the Word I see a binder that I'm not sure why is on the bookshelf. So of course I have to see what it is or my brain will not let me think. As I pull it off the shelf I instantly know what it is... my family history. A few years back my grandma (GM) made all her sons a family history book. I got a copy when I got married and I think it has to be one of my favorite gifts (other than my grand mamma's silverware) It's always good to know where you came from...who you came from.

It's not secret I love my family. I am so blessed with amazing parents and a super awesome baby brother. But they were also blessed with awesome parents, who were blessed with awesome parents. As I read through the pages for the millionth time God laid His hand of comfort on me to show me that He has greater plans for my life just like He had greater plans for my family long before I entered the scene. I come from a long line of people that God used in great ways. I am very proud to be identified as their great granddaughter, grand daughter and daughter from people who recognize my name...well maiden name now. People who made several trips in a truck to pick people up for church, who taught adult Sunday school as a youth because they could read when the others couldn't, who took part in starting and building a church, who moved their family from family up north to start a church in a small Ohio town. People who invested and loved on people of the town. Who worked long hours at work then went to the building site of the church they started....who retired yet still preach. People who moved their family from that town to a new church, new town , new schools, to chase after God. That's my family! I think the binder caught my eye as a way of God showing me where I came from and showing me that He can do greater things in my life too!